It's been exactly 2 years since i last penned down my thoughts on this page! what a coincidence in timing :D
A shout out... i'm turning thirty this year! XXX, 29 + 1, dirty thirty... whatever the naming conventions, i'm entering into a new phase of my life. a little apprehensive but excited at the same time. i'm finally an adult (i think), though i don't feel like one on the inside. At work, in my meetings and all my conversations I feel like I'm merely putting on a show and front to hide the little girl in me, the real me. But looking at my circumstances, yes i am an adult, financially stable, wrinkles forming around my eyes, skin starting to sag, a crown full of grey hair ... don't get me started. haha.
Well work has taken up majority of my time and energy, (but of course still serving the Lord and loving Him :)) I've grown so much these past 2 years, I thank God for His grace and favor. I look back and all I am reminded of is His faithfulness and goodness. Everything else and all other circumstances pales in comparison to who He is and what He has done for me.
Skinny love to a parallel feeling... and parallel thoughts
Signing out, early day tomorrow and stressful week year ahead!
Wednesday, 9 March 2016
Skinny Love
Saturday, 8 March 2014
hello march
it's been a whirlwind of a year ... 2013, though memories are forever.
i've embarked on an exciting journey this 2014, i truly believe the best is yet to come and i'm eager for the future to unveil. i'm the bright-eyed sophie once again :D
loves birthday celebrations, don't they remind you again of how much and how many people do care about you? thank God for friends & family :)
going to bed grateful for all You have done, and looking forward to the experiences You have in-stored for me in the road ahead. truly You are more than enough for me...
Sunday, 30 June 2013
let go
forgiveness is the most unnatural of human emotions. A conscious choice we need to make.
so often the fear of losing paralyzes us, i've decided to be a strong believer of "we win some, we lose some". there is only so much we can hold on to, we let go, to let in. don't be afraid to lose.
Saturday, 4 May 2013
in the rubble
we spend our lives building multiple forts, facades, yet each time along the way various walls crack, collapse. sometimes we choose to bring them down, other times He breaks them. yet there are times when we let people in and they tear them down.
in the rubble of our broken ways, of our vices, of our sins, we rebuild again.
Monday, 11 March 2013
Teaching my School of Thoughts
yes, i am still in school. my thoughts have never graduated from school & never will! Always so much to learn. My teachers? Mr G, Mr J & Mr H.S
Researchers have discovered that the heart has it's own "brain"; 100 million neurons that communicates to the actual brain.
when it gets overwhelming, when our heart feels but doesn't think, we are moved to make choices more often than not - are not the best, but vary in degrees.
everything we say or do has a purpose, a definitive meaning, initiates a direction - consciously or subconsciously.
my rebellious heart & obedient head need to communicate better this year. So far, scores have not been anywhere near distinction. this student needs to work extra hard.
Psalm 111:10
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom; all who follow his precepts have good understanding.
Friday, 4 January 2013
somewhere only i know
i can't keep what i can't afford to lose.
to have it with the possibility of losing or not to have it at all?
sometimes my favourite part of the day is when i'm taken to somewhere only i know, yet involuntary.
a place where anything could happen.
where my deepest thoughts come alive, my dreams fulfilled, only but fleeting moments.
good night :)
Wednesday, 26 December 2012
love a luxury
i decided to give my thoughts a little more freedom and space to run, apart from inside my head.
so here they go running wild & free with a tad of restraint...
a little pensive this morning, perhaps the year is coming to a close, perhaps this was not the easiest Christmas holiday.
today this phrase discreetly appeared in my head "love is a luxury". i toyed with this idea, what it meant. what it meant to me.
my mind like a labyrinth, i searched frantically for the path that would lead to enlightenment.
to no avail, all i found were countless routes that would lead to a variation of answers.
thus i chose what i wanted to believe.
love is a commodity, a luxurious one.
everybody needs love (some form of it), a necessity to keep sane, to feel alive.
we covet after it, an indulgence, that which we take comfort and pleasure.
some find what they're looking for, some search throughout eternity but never discover it.
we want more when we find it, yet when we lose it, we tell ourselves that a minuscule portion of that which was lost would suffice. how ironic. how precious.
its value? invaluable.
but someone first had to pay an invaluable price for it - salvation, kinship, friendship; a mother to her child, a husband to his wife, a ruler to his people...
i realized equality does not exist and never will, for we are flawed.
love given or taken cannot be measured.
you might only know who took the first step, who first paid the price and thereafter will be no end.
love knows no bounds.
love resides in eternity
Monday, 19 November 2012
The "R"s of Life
sometimes i stop. pretend i don't actually exist (so i don't give myself so much pressure) and re-evaluate everything under my knowledge umbrella (limited obviously). Reflect, Reminisce - perhaps get overwhelmed by Regret & Remorse for just a few moments then contemplate how i should Restore, Respond or simply Resign & just Relax.
Lately i've been really Relishing solitary drives down ECP, with the windows down and blasting the car stereo to my favourite songs...
On a side note, 2012 is coming to a close, looking forward to a brand new start in 2013 - Everything will be alright, doesn't seem so right now, but i believe, i know so. Yes it will be.
Wednesday, 24 October 2012
shake it out
Florence and the Machine
Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play
And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn
And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I'm always dragging that horse around
And our love is pastured such a mournful sound
Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues strong
But it's always darkest before the dawn
SHAKE IT OUT
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off
I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I'm gonna cut it out and then restart
Cause I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn
SHAKE IT OUT
And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It's a fine romance but it's left me so undone
It's always darkest before the dawn
SHAKE IT OUT
Sunday, 29 July 2012
Sunday, 3 June 2012
leap of faith
in the still of the night, i allow the songs of Ed Sheeran & Jason Mraz to interrupt the deafening silence. Feels good to have their company; enjoying what's left of the weekend :)
i've been moving to quickly, without allowing my heart to catch up with my head. time for "self-check". There must be more to life, my life in Christ.
Being in church doesn't mean we lead perfect, sinless lives. Spent 2 hours of ministry time helping out after Pastor Mike's service on Saturday. Was especially touched by one lady's courage whom i was praying for - to admit the sin she committed, to share the fear that gripped her heart, the shame that plagued her life, and her desperation for a breakthrough. Together, we stood in the presence of God, cried out for His grace, healing power and love that overcomes all circumstances. The size of our sins, the situations we're in do not matter, we all need God the same.
Lord, I need you.
Wednesday, 21 September 2011
h a p p y . b i r t h d a y . s o p h i e
i'm officially a quarter of a century old!
i have missed you bloggy
i'm alive :)
Tuesday, 17 May 2011
it is random
it's late. quiet moments like this ... i embrace. i tell myself the world has come to a temporary halt (for everyone's asleep).
i keep my itunes on shuffle mode, because i like that it surprises me by playing my next favourite song (cheap thrill i know).
i create as many possible outcomes of situations in my mind as fast as i can think, to prepare myself for what's to come next. it has to be one of the "options" right? (wrong)
sometimes when i drive to the work, i imagine i'm heading somewhere else. don't they say it's the journey that's more important than the destination?
when i was young i was determined that i could count the number of stars in the sky, because i thought they followed me wherever i went without realising wherever i went they were there (first - it's the sky that they've made their home).
i want to write cards for hallmark when i'm old & retired, hoping its content will reach out and touch like-minded ones
i think love is more than a feeling but it's also a choice
life's full of "its". random ones.
and now it's time for bed...
Tuesday, 1 March 2011
my favourite girl
Brunch at Prive :)
Happy 25th Birthday Sling!
Saturday, 5 February 2011
and so i tap my feet & twirl around
i really miss dancing classical ballet. it used to be sunday evening ballet classes,
but now it's the occasional Friday night dancing to the tunes of above & beyond, tiesto, guetta
(& God forbid even Pitbull)...
haha stark contrast eh.
it doesn't matter that people say it's ludicrous, we still refuse to admit.
why does our heart ache when we are grieved?
why do tears flow involuntarily?
how could century old memories be played so vividly in our minds?
how is it that we can feel time come to a standstill?
im baffled.
you smile despite your pain.
TSL, i love you.
Wednesday, 26 January 2011
Wednesday, 29 December 2010
Wednesday, 22 September 2010
Krabi
Island hopping
Saturday, 18 September 2010
Monday, 17 May 2010
practical magic
i don't know if you do remember this show, but one particular scene just happened to store itself in my head more than a good decade ago.
i was twelve and impressionable.
well being witches, one of the sisters decided that she would concoct the man of her dreams. a spell she created with the help of her sister, she formulated her soul mate in a porcelain bowl. if only it were true, i'd do the same
my recipe would read:
a dash of charm
a teaspoon of sweetness
an ounce of humour
a spoonful of generosity
a cup of courage
a pint of wisdom
bushels of love
and i'd make all sorts of recipes for all my girlfriends!
Sunday, 16 May 2010
amazing thailand
or it could also mean you have done something really wrong...
Monday, 10 May 2010
paper planes
it's been a while!
this just came to me, and sling babe, this one's for you.
Wednesday, 24 March 2010
charmed
the picture doesn't do any justice, they are indescribably gorgeous real life!
Sunday, 21 March 2010
sunday with sling
weekend's over for now!
half a heart
Friday, 19 March 2010
Wednesday, 17 March 2010
the monday we met
my highest call, my greatest call is loving You.
surrendered your life You chose me
though i did not deserve you chose me
so i choose to love just as You chose me
i put You first as You first love me
i'll treasure your grace as You died for me
First Love - Abundant Life Church
it's all about the choices we make that depicts our lives. i chose You.
thank You for choosing me right from the start :)
Thursday, 11 March 2010
the city of bangkok
weeeeeeeeee i'm really excited about my upcoming trip to Thailand on the thirty-first. we'll be planning our itinerary next week. really hope that sling would wanna go site-seeing with me :)
Monday, 8 March 2010
by the pier
although i think it's more than a tad bit ambitious, i'll just have to wait till i've got the extra time. i'll start with the carousel soon (i hope)!